Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Something happened during ODAC today. It was really upsetting and to some extent demoralising. Hazel is now the acting president. Cheesy, I appreciate all those effort and hours you have put in for ODAC. I guess we all know and we all saw your hard work. Though ends didn't manage to meet, you have laid the path. It rained halfway during PT today and Mr Lim had a talk with us. I think what he said was right. I want to be a fighter, not a by-stander, not a quitter. I will push for an even more bonded ODAC 22nd. I know you have a rationale for scolding and I will face all your scoldings, if I ever deserve them. I will have the courage.
For those who were worried about me, thanks for caring. I am alright. For those who couldn't understand, I hope you can just forget it. Don't let me hear you gossipping. It really felt like dark chocolate- bitter with a sweet after-taste. I know it is bad and yes it does hurt a little. Nevertheless, it is like a vent for me and has given me some form of relief. I will refrain from it.
It hurts to hear people talking about taking S papers. To think that I came into AJ thinking of taking them. Now I know I don't have that capability and instead of lingering along that lines, I am forced into thinking which subject to drop. As for GP, it still pains me to hear about it even today. Really wanted to ask you to stop but what right do I have to deprive you of your freedom to speech? Guess that you didn't know it affected me, hence you are not at fault. Let time wash all these pain away, while I get up on my own two feet and persevere through till I get my desired results.
*feels like dark chocolate - bitter with a sweet after-taste*
For those who were worried about me, thanks for caring. I am alright. For those who couldn't understand, I hope you can just forget it. Don't let me hear you gossipping. It really felt like dark chocolate- bitter with a sweet after-taste. I know it is bad and yes it does hurt a little. Nevertheless, it is like a vent for me and has given me some form of relief. I will refrain from it.
It hurts to hear people talking about taking S papers. To think that I came into AJ thinking of taking them. Now I know I don't have that capability and instead of lingering along that lines, I am forced into thinking which subject to drop. As for GP, it still pains me to hear about it even today. Really wanted to ask you to stop but what right do I have to deprive you of your freedom to speech? Guess that you didn't know it affected me, hence you are not at fault. Let time wash all these pain away, while I get up on my own two feet and persevere through till I get my desired results.
*feels like dark chocolate - bitter with a sweet after-taste*
what we could have been, 9:23 PM.
Monday, October 17, 2005
Promos results are out!
GP, I got 24 for essay and 24.5 for compre. That makes 48.5. It wasn't up to my expectations. In fact it is far from my expectations. I was pining for an A and yet... *sigh* I heard that you got 34 for GP essay and that is indeed something to be proud of. Sorry I didn't even bother to try mustering up some happiness for you when I heard your score. In fact I am quite sorry to say that I felt like you were rubbing salt into my already bleeding wound. If you have realised, I didnt even have the mood to read up your well-written piece of essay. I will work harder - I will push myself to reach your score of 34/50 for Essay next year.
Maths I got an F and for physics and chem I got E. I need one more percent to shift me up to a grade D for both. Then there is econs. I scored 22/30 for MCQ, 14/20 for DRQ, 18 for Essay, 7 for Case Study. That totals to a 61 and for a moment I was overejoyed but the sky seems like it has sunk a thousand feet when I knew it was out of 120. *Laugh out Loud* Doesn't matter. Anyway of all my 4 A level subjects, Econs was the best. Now I think I have to drop a subject. The dillema now comes as to which subject should I forgo? Econs is what most people usually drop and Maths is the most unlikely one. However my grades deter from this trend. How? I still have time to think. Meanwhile, I may sign up for maths tuition. Most likely the one that Weng goes to.
As for you, if you happen to chance upon this. I really hope you won't cry. I only got to see you get angry for a second last week and have yet to see you cry. I hope you won't. I sincerely want you to be happy. Sorry the pen didn't work its magical charm. I won't mind if you decide to throw it away if that could lessen your pain. Though I don't know to what extent can I relate to your feelings, I still do know the sensation of having almost everyone around you scoring what you would have liked to score for yourself. While everyone is over the moon about it and you have to bear the pain silently and hurt yourself even more by congratulating them and trying to lift your spirits to suit theirs. I am not sure you feel this way. At least, I felt somewhat like that. Can relate? Anyway,*Hugs* We will work for the better yeah?
* How long will this demoralise me to push me to work harder? No matter how low my spirits sink, I don't want this demoralising to end because it makes me go on. I don't want this to end soon, like a half-drunk energy drink.*
GP, I got 24 for essay and 24.5 for compre. That makes 48.5. It wasn't up to my expectations. In fact it is far from my expectations. I was pining for an A and yet... *sigh* I heard that you got 34 for GP essay and that is indeed something to be proud of. Sorry I didn't even bother to try mustering up some happiness for you when I heard your score. In fact I am quite sorry to say that I felt like you were rubbing salt into my already bleeding wound. If you have realised, I didnt even have the mood to read up your well-written piece of essay. I will work harder - I will push myself to reach your score of 34/50 for Essay next year.
Maths I got an F and for physics and chem I got E. I need one more percent to shift me up to a grade D for both. Then there is econs. I scored 22/30 for MCQ, 14/20 for DRQ, 18 for Essay, 7 for Case Study. That totals to a 61 and for a moment I was overejoyed but the sky seems like it has sunk a thousand feet when I knew it was out of 120. *Laugh out Loud* Doesn't matter. Anyway of all my 4 A level subjects, Econs was the best. Now I think I have to drop a subject. The dillema now comes as to which subject should I forgo? Econs is what most people usually drop and Maths is the most unlikely one. However my grades deter from this trend. How? I still have time to think. Meanwhile, I may sign up for maths tuition. Most likely the one that Weng goes to.
As for you, if you happen to chance upon this. I really hope you won't cry. I only got to see you get angry for a second last week and have yet to see you cry. I hope you won't. I sincerely want you to be happy. Sorry the pen didn't work its magical charm. I won't mind if you decide to throw it away if that could lessen your pain. Though I don't know to what extent can I relate to your feelings, I still do know the sensation of having almost everyone around you scoring what you would have liked to score for yourself. While everyone is over the moon about it and you have to bear the pain silently and hurt yourself even more by congratulating them and trying to lift your spirits to suit theirs. I am not sure you feel this way. At least, I felt somewhat like that. Can relate? Anyway,*Hugs* We will work for the better yeah?
* How long will this demoralise me to push me to work harder? No matter how low my spirits sink, I don't want this demoralising to end because it makes me go on. I don't want this to end soon, like a half-drunk energy drink.*
what we could have been, 9:39 PM.
Monday, October 10, 2005
Today I just finsihed my Econs paper 1 and 2. That marks the end of the promotional exams for JC1. Don't really feel that after exams sense of fulfillment surging. After the paper, I met Hazel and Chang Tai to do the ODAC notice board. Myra came later in the afternoon. We had loads of fun doing the board.. Hazel has got super glue on her hands and they got stuck together.
I was sneezing throughout the day and had a runny nose. Sigh. After I went home, my left eye lid got swollen. I am not sure what the swell was due to. Suspect that it is related to my runny nose and tickly sensation in my throat. I wonder if it is the weather, but I feel really warm. Getting sick... or I already am.
We intended to ask ODAC out to watch movie together tomorrow. Two hours after we agreed on tomorrow's plans, I got a text which says that there will be PT and a meeting after that tomorrow. Tomorrow is tuesday. I am ill...but I want to do PT. Mind is ready but physically not. Ching and Cheese, both ill as well... gosh, get well soon people! And me too... hope I get well real soon.
I was sneezing throughout the day and had a runny nose. Sigh. After I went home, my left eye lid got swollen. I am not sure what the swell was due to. Suspect that it is related to my runny nose and tickly sensation in my throat. I wonder if it is the weather, but I feel really warm. Getting sick... or I already am.
We intended to ask ODAC out to watch movie together tomorrow. Two hours after we agreed on tomorrow's plans, I got a text which says that there will be PT and a meeting after that tomorrow. Tomorrow is tuesday. I am ill...but I want to do PT. Mind is ready but physically not. Ching and Cheese, both ill as well... gosh, get well soon people! And me too... hope I get well real soon.
what we could have been, 9:34 PM.
Friday, October 07, 2005
pV=nRT is the ideal gas formula...
What is it like to be ideal? How to be ideal? Deviating from ideal, high pressure and low temperature...
I spotted another mistake in my mcq...
~hurt
It is crushed to a million pieces
I want to piece it back again
and yet, it is just so difficult
What is it like to be ideal? How to be ideal? Deviating from ideal, high pressure and low temperature...
I spotted another mistake in my mcq...
~hurt
It is crushed to a million pieces
I want to piece it back again
and yet, it is just so difficult
what we could have been, 12:38 PM.
