Monday, October 17, 2005
Promos results are out!
GP, I got 24 for essay and 24.5 for compre. That makes 48.5. It wasn't up to my expectations. In fact it is far from my expectations. I was pining for an A and yet... *sigh* I heard that you got 34 for GP essay and that is indeed something to be proud of. Sorry I didn't even bother to try mustering up some happiness for you when I heard your score. In fact I am quite sorry to say that I felt like you were rubbing salt into my already bleeding wound. If you have realised, I didnt even have the mood to read up your well-written piece of essay. I will work harder - I will push myself to reach your score of 34/50 for Essay next year.
Maths I got an F and for physics and chem I got E. I need one more percent to shift me up to a grade D for both. Then there is econs. I scored 22/30 for MCQ, 14/20 for DRQ, 18 for Essay, 7 for Case Study. That totals to a 61 and for a moment I was overejoyed but the sky seems like it has sunk a thousand feet when I knew it was out of 120. *Laugh out Loud* Doesn't matter. Anyway of all my 4 A level subjects, Econs was the best. Now I think I have to drop a subject. The dillema now comes as to which subject should I forgo? Econs is what most people usually drop and Maths is the most unlikely one. However my grades deter from this trend. How? I still have time to think. Meanwhile, I may sign up for maths tuition. Most likely the one that Weng goes to.
As for you, if you happen to chance upon this. I really hope you won't cry. I only got to see you get angry for a second last week and have yet to see you cry. I hope you won't. I sincerely want you to be happy. Sorry the pen didn't work its magical charm. I won't mind if you decide to throw it away if that could lessen your pain. Though I don't know to what extent can I relate to your feelings, I still do know the sensation of having almost everyone around you scoring what you would have liked to score for yourself. While everyone is over the moon about it and you have to bear the pain silently and hurt yourself even more by congratulating them and trying to lift your spirits to suit theirs. I am not sure you feel this way. At least, I felt somewhat like that. Can relate? Anyway,*Hugs* We will work for the better yeah?
* How long will this demoralise me to push me to work harder? No matter how low my spirits sink, I don't want this demoralising to end because it makes me go on. I don't want this to end soon, like a half-drunk energy drink.*
GP, I got 24 for essay and 24.5 for compre. That makes 48.5. It wasn't up to my expectations. In fact it is far from my expectations. I was pining for an A and yet... *sigh* I heard that you got 34 for GP essay and that is indeed something to be proud of. Sorry I didn't even bother to try mustering up some happiness for you when I heard your score. In fact I am quite sorry to say that I felt like you were rubbing salt into my already bleeding wound. If you have realised, I didnt even have the mood to read up your well-written piece of essay. I will work harder - I will push myself to reach your score of 34/50 for Essay next year.
Maths I got an F and for physics and chem I got E. I need one more percent to shift me up to a grade D for both. Then there is econs. I scored 22/30 for MCQ, 14/20 for DRQ, 18 for Essay, 7 for Case Study. That totals to a 61 and for a moment I was overejoyed but the sky seems like it has sunk a thousand feet when I knew it was out of 120. *Laugh out Loud* Doesn't matter. Anyway of all my 4 A level subjects, Econs was the best. Now I think I have to drop a subject. The dillema now comes as to which subject should I forgo? Econs is what most people usually drop and Maths is the most unlikely one. However my grades deter from this trend. How? I still have time to think. Meanwhile, I may sign up for maths tuition. Most likely the one that Weng goes to.
As for you, if you happen to chance upon this. I really hope you won't cry. I only got to see you get angry for a second last week and have yet to see you cry. I hope you won't. I sincerely want you to be happy. Sorry the pen didn't work its magical charm. I won't mind if you decide to throw it away if that could lessen your pain. Though I don't know to what extent can I relate to your feelings, I still do know the sensation of having almost everyone around you scoring what you would have liked to score for yourself. While everyone is over the moon about it and you have to bear the pain silently and hurt yourself even more by congratulating them and trying to lift your spirits to suit theirs. I am not sure you feel this way. At least, I felt somewhat like that. Can relate? Anyway,*Hugs* We will work for the better yeah?
* How long will this demoralise me to push me to work harder? No matter how low my spirits sink, I don't want this demoralising to end because it makes me go on. I don't want this to end soon, like a half-drunk energy drink.*
what we could have been, 9:39 PM.
