Wednesday, January 25, 2006
When I say goodbye, I want to catch your eyes in my sight...
sometimes, you make me wonder...
sometimes, you make me wonder...
what we could have been, 10:59 PM.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
I dislike quarells, they affect me...
if both of you will just stop quarelling...
if you would just not let your stress at work affect you...
if you would just not use me to vent your anger
... because I am not your vent
aren't you both literally doing the same thing? using other issues as vents of another problem altogether...
don't let me get trap in your tangles
I pretended not to hear, i pretended not to know
I don't want to pretend...
you both give no time to know my dissapointment.
feeling insignificant
I am afraid to drift... drift away from you two... drift away alone
if both of you will just stop quarelling...
if you would just not let your stress at work affect you...
if you would just not use me to vent your anger
... because I am not your vent
aren't you both literally doing the same thing? using other issues as vents of another problem altogether...
don't let me get trap in your tangles
I pretended not to hear, i pretended not to know
I don't want to pretend...
you both give no time to know my dissapointment.
feeling insignificant
I am afraid to drift... drift away from you two... drift away alone
what we could have been, 11:17 PM.
Monday, January 23, 2006
Had such a nice sleep yesterday... I counted... 16 hours. I slept two-thirds the day away.
Reminiscing those days we took walks at various reserviors near our vacinity. Would you drive me to Pierce Reservior, spend an hour to hold my hand and walk with me? Will we have the time to do that soon?
Perhaps, you should watch " I Not Stupid Too"... Perhaps it will dawn upon you... perhaps it won't. You never see the problem. There never seems to be a problem. Otherwise, the problem always seem to lie with me. I don't want to be selfish. My wishful thinking is selfish enough.
There are some things I want to remember, and they need not be repeated .
There are some things I want to forget, and they need not be kept.
There are some things I want to happen, and they need not be
Sometimes.
Reminiscing those days we took walks at various reserviors near our vacinity. Would you drive me to Pierce Reservior, spend an hour to hold my hand and walk with me? Will we have the time to do that soon?
Perhaps, you should watch " I Not Stupid Too"... Perhaps it will dawn upon you... perhaps it won't. You never see the problem. There never seems to be a problem. Otherwise, the problem always seem to lie with me. I don't want to be selfish. My wishful thinking is selfish enough.
There are some things I want to remember, and they need not be repeated .
There are some things I want to forget, and they need not be kept.
There are some things I want to happen, and they need not be
Sometimes.
what we could have been, 10:12 PM.
Friday, January 06, 2006
I was just wondering which subject to drop. Seriously, enough of Chua’s crazy idea of keeping 4 subjects. The homework is already piling and yet this is only the third day school has reopened. I was considering to drop physics or econs. Would I be able to score for physics… and would I get into uni with that results? As for the consequences of dropping physics, I will be deprived of many uni course options in one shot. None the less, without being able to enter uni, what is the point of talking about the course? I referred to NUS website, Business admin don’t require much so it doesn’t matter which subject I drop. As for the science faculty, must have two A level passes (econs not included) I have Maths and Chem, provided I pass both of them. Doubt I really want to be an engineer… now physics wont play much of a role. Hence I guess the main question is which subject would I handle better for the A levels and hence excel in it while not affecting the other subjects. Still wondering.
Till I decide, ceteris paribus… LOL! ECONS!
I guess now I know. I know why I dislike coming home too early during the weekdays and love staying home during the weekends. I don’t blame you. It is just that I can’t help thinking about it when I am unhappy. Till now, you are still my number one. It is an undeniable fact. Sometime I wished I could be a workaholic like you… then I would enjoy dousing myself with the workload. I am simply too playful… I really want to be a workaholic like you. The attitude is simply worth admiring, yet I have some of my selfish and childish thoughts…
Sorry for being b*tchy sometimes… I wish I was not and would not be. Apologies.
Till I decide, ceteris paribus… LOL! ECONS!
I guess now I know. I know why I dislike coming home too early during the weekdays and love staying home during the weekends. I don’t blame you. It is just that I can’t help thinking about it when I am unhappy. Till now, you are still my number one. It is an undeniable fact. Sometime I wished I could be a workaholic like you… then I would enjoy dousing myself with the workload. I am simply too playful… I really want to be a workaholic like you. The attitude is simply worth admiring, yet I have some of my selfish and childish thoughts…
Sorry for being b*tchy sometimes… I wish I was not and would not be. Apologies.
what we could have been, 12:02 AM.
