Monday, July 10, 2006
Hmmz, I really don't know why bees love to come into my room. Especially at night. The bee is huge and buzz away loudly. I don't mind the bee but still I'm quite scared it will sting me or something. I think bees are cute. And they have yellow stripes. And what's more, they are furry too. haha. I guess perhaps I have too many brightly coloured things in my room that attracted it over.
Recently, I have been listening to this song over and over again. I think the melody sounds so beautiful with a tinge of sadness in it. I can't say much about the lyrics bcause I have not found its translations yet. I am working out the keys of this song on my old electone at home. "I Believe"
Just got back some of my papers. Lousy grades. Feeling a little lost. I don't know how to continue, how to study. Is my study method wrong? I really am at a lost at what to do now.
"I believe", that's such a strong phrase. So assured, so definite.
Sorry. It is hard to be an angel. Your angel.
"I believe"... ...do you?
what we could have been, 9:59 PM.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
To you, thanks. I don't want to lie to you. Talking to you didn't take away the problem and that feeling. But, it made me feel much better and made the problem much bearable. Thanks. Hope you know who you are, then you will know that you are the person I am thanking. :)
I am like so disgusted. Keep having headaches and dizzy spells suddenly these days. Injury-prone. Un-healthy. Why can't I be stronger? Or is it because...
Sometimes I really wonder if my body is weak or is it because I haven't been treating it well enough. Am I pushing myself too hard and off my limits sometimes. I am like so disgusted with myself to say this. I am already that weak. If I don't push myself, I will only become weaker. Right?
weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.
I didn't care if it got hurt. Sorry.
I think, I am not much of an angel. Not your angel. Sorry.
weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.
I am like so disgusted. Keep having headaches and dizzy spells suddenly these days. Injury-prone. Un-healthy. Why can't I be stronger? Or is it because...
Sometimes I really wonder if my body is weak or is it because I haven't been treating it well enough. Am I pushing myself too hard and off my limits sometimes. I am like so disgusted with myself to say this. I am already that weak. If I don't push myself, I will only become weaker. Right?
weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.
I didn't care if it got hurt. Sorry.
I think, I am not much of an angel. Not your angel. Sorry.
weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.weak.
what we could have been, 1:18 PM.
