Thursday, September 14, 2006
Only if my function of f(x) is not = y
It was scarey. I didn't know I have been sleep-walking for such a long time. I didn't know when it begin. It might have been there for days, weeks months or even a year. I need to wake up. I need to. How desperate am I to get out of this sleep-walking, this trance. I tried to wake up, but it seems like I can't. Someone, wake me up.
Well, actually I don't sleep-walk. The above paragraph is just a description of my feelings now. Days pass so quickly that I don't notice. Sometimes when I wake up, I didn't know what I did within the pass 24hrs of sober time. It's scarey. And it just dawned on me a few moments ago this "sleep-walking" trance is happening to me. I studied, i practised and I have proof of them. Even so, the preliminary papers I have just done don't seem to reflect much. Now I am pretty scared to get back the results although there are still 3 more to go next week. I guess I am going to fail all of them again. Failing my exams... it didn't appear as prominent two years ago; last year failing didn't seem significant- like some norm or at least I didn't take it seriously, and now it hits me hard in the face and I learn to feel afraid. It became some sort of sign as to whether I studied hard enough and get those information into my head and putting them down on paper.
The only missing link now is what the problem is. I know a problem exist in my studying and it causes me not to do well for my exams. But I just can't idenify what the problem is. Hate it when people ask me "why your results like that? What is the problem?" Hate it because I don't even know.
Need to get some help here... Want to help myself to but I don't know why the way I am helping myself doesn't improve the condition much. HELP!
Seems like this function is true to me... just don't know how to prove it:
f(x)= exam results if I studied
y= exam results if I did not study
where y= f(x)
why arh?
in desperate need of accurate answers!
All I can say to cheer myself up: Work harder you lazy ass!
It was scarey. I didn't know I have been sleep-walking for such a long time. I didn't know when it begin. It might have been there for days, weeks months or even a year. I need to wake up. I need to. How desperate am I to get out of this sleep-walking, this trance. I tried to wake up, but it seems like I can't. Someone, wake me up.
Well, actually I don't sleep-walk. The above paragraph is just a description of my feelings now. Days pass so quickly that I don't notice. Sometimes when I wake up, I didn't know what I did within the pass 24hrs of sober time. It's scarey. And it just dawned on me a few moments ago this "sleep-walking" trance is happening to me. I studied, i practised and I have proof of them. Even so, the preliminary papers I have just done don't seem to reflect much. Now I am pretty scared to get back the results although there are still 3 more to go next week. I guess I am going to fail all of them again. Failing my exams... it didn't appear as prominent two years ago; last year failing didn't seem significant- like some norm or at least I didn't take it seriously, and now it hits me hard in the face and I learn to feel afraid. It became some sort of sign as to whether I studied hard enough and get those information into my head and putting them down on paper.
The only missing link now is what the problem is. I know a problem exist in my studying and it causes me not to do well for my exams. But I just can't idenify what the problem is. Hate it when people ask me "why your results like that? What is the problem?" Hate it because I don't even know.
Need to get some help here... Want to help myself to but I don't know why the way I am helping myself doesn't improve the condition much. HELP!
Seems like this function is true to me... just don't know how to prove it:
f(x)= exam results if I studied
y= exam results if I did not study
where y= f(x)
why arh?
in desperate need of accurate answers!
All I can say to cheer myself up: Work harder you lazy ass!
what we could have been, 2:15 PM.
