Monday, May 28, 2007
"Cancer" by My Chemical Romance
A very touching song from "The Black Parade". The song reflected how frightening and saddening cancer can be. I have included the lyrics and a music video I got from youtube. Enjoy and treasure life.
Turn Away
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my Aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favourite colours
My sisters and my brothers still
I will not kiss you
'Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you
Now turn away
'Cause I'm awful just to see
My hairs abandoned all my body
Oh my agony
Know that I will never marry
Baby I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know
That if you say
Goodbye today
I'd ask you to be true
'Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you
A very touching song from "The Black Parade". The song reflected how frightening and saddening cancer can be. I have included the lyrics and a music video I got from youtube. Enjoy and treasure life.
Turn Away
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my Aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favourite colours
My sisters and my brothers still
I will not kiss you
'Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you
Now turn away
'Cause I'm awful just to see
My hairs abandoned all my body
Oh my agony
Know that I will never marry
Baby I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know
That if you say
Goodbye today
I'd ask you to be true
'Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you
what we could have been, 12:54 PM.
The Black Parade- My Chemical Romance
1. The End
2. Dead!
3. This Is How I Disappear
4. The Sharpest Lives
5. Welcome to the Black Parade
6. I Don't Love You
7. House of Wolves
8. Cancer
9. Mama
10. Sleep
11. Teenagers
12. Disenchanted
13. Famous Last Words
Hidden Track: Blood
1. The End
2. Dead!
3. This Is How I Disappear
4. The Sharpest Lives
5. Welcome to the Black Parade
6. I Don't Love You
7. House of Wolves
8. Cancer
9. Mama
10. Sleep
11. Teenagers
12. Disenchanted
13. Famous Last Words
Hidden Track: Blood
what we could have been, 11:55 AM.
Friday, May 25, 2007
My lessons are in orchard and they end at 1230. There is a class gathering supposedly at 1900 at orchard too. And I was quite bothered about how I shall use the time in between. Going home to slack and come back to Orchard later in the evening doesn't seem to be a wise option. In the end, this was how I spent the day
After lessons, I went down to HMV to kill time. I was going around to those cd stands whereby there are headphones attached to listen to different cds. That is really not a good choice. The more I listen, the more cds I want to buy. Following is a list:
1) Hamasaki Ayumi's "A Best White"
2) Hamasaki Ayumi's "A Best Black"
3) BoA's "Made in Twenty [20]"
4) Lee Jun Ki's "My Jun, My Story"
These are all on the charts for Korean/Japanese Songs
5) Rain's "Rain's Coming"
6) My Chemical Romance's "The Black Parade"
7) Linkin Park's "Minutes to Midnight"
8) Coldplay
9) Maroon 5
In the end, I couldn't resist myself and ended up buying My Chemical Romance's "The Black Parade". After which I quickly got away from HMV to avoid more temptation to spend money buying cds. However, I am enjoying the cd I bought this very moment. Many nice songs.
It was just slightly pass 1430 when I decide to go back to my primary school since I saw a banner some time ago indicating that today was their open house. On my way back, I received a call from Sheryl saying that the mini class gathering today is cancelled. I was really quiet because it seems like I was the only one on the bus talking and I must have sounded very loud. I could nearly feel the commuters' eyes on me.
Anyway, get to meet Mrs Khoo, Mrs Ng, Mdm Zhang and Ms Tien (in the order of the time spent speaking to them). Naturally I spoke more to my Pri 6 teachers, Mrs Khoo and Mrs Ng. I learnt that Mrs Khoo now has a younger daughter who's one year younger than her son and I felt really honoured when she told me that she named her daughter after me. She named her daugher XiLing. WOH! I was really too shocked for words. Fainted can!
Now I am back home, blogging and listening to The Black Parade Track 6 "I Don't Love You" The lyrics is nice. Shall post it the next time if possible.
After lessons, I went down to HMV to kill time. I was going around to those cd stands whereby there are headphones attached to listen to different cds. That is really not a good choice. The more I listen, the more cds I want to buy. Following is a list:
1) Hamasaki Ayumi's "A Best White"
2) Hamasaki Ayumi's "A Best Black"
3) BoA's "Made in Twenty [20]"
4) Lee Jun Ki's "My Jun, My Story"
These are all on the charts for Korean/Japanese Songs
5) Rain's "Rain's Coming"
6) My Chemical Romance's "The Black Parade"
7) Linkin Park's "Minutes to Midnight"
8) Coldplay
9) Maroon 5
In the end, I couldn't resist myself and ended up buying My Chemical Romance's "The Black Parade". After which I quickly got away from HMV to avoid more temptation to spend money buying cds. However, I am enjoying the cd I bought this very moment. Many nice songs.
It was just slightly pass 1430 when I decide to go back to my primary school since I saw a banner some time ago indicating that today was their open house. On my way back, I received a call from Sheryl saying that the mini class gathering today is cancelled. I was really quiet because it seems like I was the only one on the bus talking and I must have sounded very loud. I could nearly feel the commuters' eyes on me.
Anyway, get to meet Mrs Khoo, Mrs Ng, Mdm Zhang and Ms Tien (in the order of the time spent speaking to them). Naturally I spoke more to my Pri 6 teachers, Mrs Khoo and Mrs Ng. I learnt that Mrs Khoo now has a younger daughter who's one year younger than her son and I felt really honoured when she told me that she named her daughter after me. She named her daugher XiLing. WOH! I was really too shocked for words. Fainted can!
Now I am back home, blogging and listening to The Black Parade Track 6 "I Don't Love You" The lyrics is nice. Shall post it the next time if possible.
what we could have been, 5:20 PM.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
The juniors are going to have an expedition this June... which so happens to be next Friday. I attended the briefing for the trip and it sounds so exciting. They will be summiting two mountains Berembun and Cemerong. Visiting two waterfalls and watching sunrise on one of them. Then kayak down the meandering river with crocodiles and piranahs. Right, joking... there were'nt sightings of these two dangerous creatures before. Still... this is so So SO EXCITING!!!
But oh well... I have my considerations and worries and I shall list them below.
1) The cost of the trip is $498 and now I am not being subsidised by the school. Yes, I understand that I have been working but still it is not a samll sum to pull out. On top of that, some money earned have to put aside for the sponsoring of the courses that I signed up for.
2) I don't know if I am fit enought for the expedition and I am not good at kayaking. Plus it seems like none of my batch mates are going. I think my senior is going but I guess I will still feel more comfortable with my batch people. The mountains are not that high yet, at 800m and 1016m above sea level. Shorter or about Belumut's height but two mountains in two days. Can I make it?
3) Some of my courses fall on the expedition dates. I have to check out if I can make up for those lessons missed. If they can't be change, I would not be able to go for it.
4) I told my parents about it and my mum kept quiet about it while my dad asked me not to go. He's always discouraging me to go for expeditions although I always end up persuading them to let me go and I would come back safely in one piece.
Meiying is persuading me to go so she doesn't have to pair with Miss "Apple" since she is the only one from her batch. Jingxin says I should go since I would enjoy the fun and ask me to persuade my batch mates to go as well. Yet my ultimate persuasion comes from myself. My love for jungle trekking and this expedition sounds SO EXCITING! Will get to touch soil and tree brunches, feed leeches (not like I enjoy it but it is cute to poke at them, see them grow fat on your skin, and then squirm when you spray repellant on them), feel the cool air and the water spray on my face near the waterfall, see the beautiful sunrise, attempt eating the clouds, have the company of people going through the same physical and mental stress yet enjoying it all at the same time. How now? I have to reply Mr Chin on Sunday.
But oh well... I have my considerations and worries and I shall list them below.
1) The cost of the trip is $498 and now I am not being subsidised by the school. Yes, I understand that I have been working but still it is not a samll sum to pull out. On top of that, some money earned have to put aside for the sponsoring of the courses that I signed up for.
2) I don't know if I am fit enought for the expedition and I am not good at kayaking. Plus it seems like none of my batch mates are going. I think my senior is going but I guess I will still feel more comfortable with my batch people. The mountains are not that high yet, at 800m and 1016m above sea level. Shorter or about Belumut's height but two mountains in two days. Can I make it?
3) Some of my courses fall on the expedition dates. I have to check out if I can make up for those lessons missed. If they can't be change, I would not be able to go for it.
4) I told my parents about it and my mum kept quiet about it while my dad asked me not to go. He's always discouraging me to go for expeditions although I always end up persuading them to let me go and I would come back safely in one piece.
Meiying is persuading me to go so she doesn't have to pair with Miss "Apple" since she is the only one from her batch. Jingxin says I should go since I would enjoy the fun and ask me to persuade my batch mates to go as well. Yet my ultimate persuasion comes from myself. My love for jungle trekking and this expedition sounds SO EXCITING! Will get to touch soil and tree brunches, feed leeches (not like I enjoy it but it is cute to poke at them, see them grow fat on your skin, and then squirm when you spray repellant on them), feel the cool air and the water spray on my face near the waterfall, see the beautiful sunrise, attempt eating the clouds, have the company of people going through the same physical and mental stress yet enjoying it all at the same time. How now? I have to reply Mr Chin on Sunday.
what we could have been, 9:13 AM.
Sunday, May 06, 2007
I am back from Belumut, a second time. For those who are concerned, thanks a lot for that and yor messages. Your well wishes are precious to me. I am back safe and sound, no injuries save a few scratches on my knee and muscle aches all over as of today.
Eh, apparently I think I am not as fit as last time. The trek was tiring. But we still made it despite our fatique. Bag-pull-ed with Hazel- meaning we put our stuff in one bag and take turns to carry. We had 4.5L of water equivalent to 4.5kg since density of water is 1kg/mcube and 1mcube of water makes one litre. We also packed in our stuff like bread, Hazel's extra sandals, towel, torch and other stuff. It is heavy alright, considering the fact that we were climbing a mountain of route 6km and height 110m. Drink was insufficient and we both felt that we are not really as fit as we should be. But I believe my jungle trekking skills are still there... I can still find my footing easily for downhill and can still jump over fallen tree trunks and heave myself up some heights. But to summarise, I still find my fitness level not up to standard. Oh yes, and I got to become acquainted with the juniors though I can't say that I know them all by looks yet. All in all,the trip was quite enjoyable and I am glad to be a source of motivation, despite all my crap-talk.
I intend to train more often. So Yuting, please be prepared for more motivational jogging sessions. I believe you will look forward to them, hopefully.
Eh, apparently I think I am not as fit as last time. The trek was tiring. But we still made it despite our fatique. Bag-pull-ed with Hazel- meaning we put our stuff in one bag and take turns to carry. We had 4.5L of water equivalent to 4.5kg since density of water is 1kg/mcube and 1mcube of water makes one litre. We also packed in our stuff like bread, Hazel's extra sandals, towel, torch and other stuff. It is heavy alright, considering the fact that we were climbing a mountain of route 6km and height 110m. Drink was insufficient and we both felt that we are not really as fit as we should be. But I believe my jungle trekking skills are still there... I can still find my footing easily for downhill and can still jump over fallen tree trunks and heave myself up some heights. But to summarise, I still find my fitness level not up to standard. Oh yes, and I got to become acquainted with the juniors though I can't say that I know them all by looks yet. All in all,the trip was quite enjoyable and I am glad to be a source of motivation, despite all my crap-talk.
I intend to train more often. So Yuting, please be prepared for more motivational jogging sessions. I believe you will look forward to them, hopefully.
what we could have been, 4:58 PM.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
I was so small
Compared to my dreams that seem too big
I didn't realise I was so far
Because I was looking too near
My steps may be small
But my heart is big
My goal may be far
But I will hold my dreams near
Compared to my dreams that seem too big
I didn't realise I was so far
Because I was looking too near
My steps may be small
But my heart is big
My goal may be far
But I will hold my dreams near
what we could have been, 9:58 PM.
