Monday, July 09, 2007
Hmmz, just had my second grading yesterday. Mum drove and dropped me off at Toa Payoh Sports Hall. Thanks a lot... really appreciate it. I believe it must have been due to my childish grumbles over the pass few weeks. Too childish to mention here and embarrass myself. But sure enough, I am not very pleased with my own attitude.
I was walking towards the entrance when I saw the Pri 2 girl cry. I asked her why she was crying and she shook her head, in the end she relented and told me that she can't find her dad. I had to cheer her up by saying that there is no parking space so her dad has to go around looking for one so may take some time. In the end, she broke into a smile when we spotted her dad. She said her dad wears a red shirt... there was a whole bunch of people wearing red shirt for identification purposes! Haha. Anyway, it made me reflect on how when I was a child, I would also feel really insecure when my parents are not in sight.
As for my grading, I was really nervous and I think i was shaking all over. I think my side kicks still looked funny. My peers said I did well, yet I wasn't totally relieved by their comments. Anyway, Drina obtained a junior black belt. Drina's brother failed and Sylvia nearly did as well. As for me, I obtained a Double. That means I skipped a level (skipped yellow belt) and now I moved from 9th Geup (yellow tip) to 7th Geup(green tip). Definitely I feel happy but then, I don't know why the sense of happiness is only so mild. Perhaps, I was more concerned over the other's reactions, since I am the only one from the club who got a Double. And the brown belts have to claim that this is the first in their whole time in the club. I know that Joelle really wanted a double very badly, Drina's brother failed and Sylvia was embarrassed by the kids because they kept pointing at her and saying "You're the failure" before Wong-sir announced the results. Hence, I was in an embarrassing situation. I think it is only polite to appear neutral and not overjoyed by the news. Yet, until now, I can't whoop in joy.
I don't know why... I am feeling down now... for no apparent reason.
I was walking towards the entrance when I saw the Pri 2 girl cry. I asked her why she was crying and she shook her head, in the end she relented and told me that she can't find her dad. I had to cheer her up by saying that there is no parking space so her dad has to go around looking for one so may take some time. In the end, she broke into a smile when we spotted her dad. She said her dad wears a red shirt... there was a whole bunch of people wearing red shirt for identification purposes! Haha. Anyway, it made me reflect on how when I was a child, I would also feel really insecure when my parents are not in sight.
As for my grading, I was really nervous and I think i was shaking all over. I think my side kicks still looked funny. My peers said I did well, yet I wasn't totally relieved by their comments. Anyway, Drina obtained a junior black belt. Drina's brother failed and Sylvia nearly did as well. As for me, I obtained a Double. That means I skipped a level (skipped yellow belt) and now I moved from 9th Geup (yellow tip) to 7th Geup(green tip). Definitely I feel happy but then, I don't know why the sense of happiness is only so mild. Perhaps, I was more concerned over the other's reactions, since I am the only one from the club who got a Double. And the brown belts have to claim that this is the first in their whole time in the club. I know that Joelle really wanted a double very badly, Drina's brother failed and Sylvia was embarrassed by the kids because they kept pointing at her and saying "You're the failure" before Wong-sir announced the results. Hence, I was in an embarrassing situation. I think it is only polite to appear neutral and not overjoyed by the news. Yet, until now, I can't whoop in joy.
I don't know why... I am feeling down now... for no apparent reason.
what we could have been, 9:16 PM.
