Sunday, September 02, 2007
Ranting...
I was trying for main committee in tkd as a welfare assistant. I thought the interview went quite well and thought that I will have a chance. I was too complacent and totally gave up my chance to get into the main committee for Mountaineering Club. Thinking that if I so happen to get into the main comm for both, I would not be able to catch up with my academic work which I am already struggling with now, given my already poor 'A' Level grades.
In the end, I didn't get into the main committee for tkd. Though I have to agree that the girl who got the welfare assistant post deserves it, as she had been the vice president in her previous cca and she also has a really nice personality. The people selected in the main committee would have already been informed by sms. I didn't get an sms, so I already know I didn't get it. Yet, it came as a surprise as she was sitting beside and chatting with me when they announced the committee members. I didn't know she applied for it. However, thinking about it, I think her nice personality has shone through and hence she is deserving of that post.
So next year, I don't know if I will still be able to stay in hostel.
I think being selected into a main committee would reflect that your qualities are recognised. For I thought that I had commendable qualities being selected as prefect and in the main com back in secondary school, now I seriously have my doubts. Successfully being booted out of being selected into the main committee twice, and consecutively, my confidence is faltering... and faltering at a higer rate at this second time. I keep thinking that the fact lies not in my qualities not being recognised, but lies in that I have no quality. For the lost of faith in my confidence, I compare then and now, there is truth when I say, I am more afraid to stand out now, more afraid to voice my opinions. I don't want to turn into a silent mouse. I need a boot up in confidence... can someone help?
I was trying for main committee in tkd as a welfare assistant. I thought the interview went quite well and thought that I will have a chance. I was too complacent and totally gave up my chance to get into the main committee for Mountaineering Club. Thinking that if I so happen to get into the main comm for both, I would not be able to catch up with my academic work which I am already struggling with now, given my already poor 'A' Level grades.
In the end, I didn't get into the main committee for tkd. Though I have to agree that the girl who got the welfare assistant post deserves it, as she had been the vice president in her previous cca and she also has a really nice personality. The people selected in the main committee would have already been informed by sms. I didn't get an sms, so I already know I didn't get it. Yet, it came as a surprise as she was sitting beside and chatting with me when they announced the committee members. I didn't know she applied for it. However, thinking about it, I think her nice personality has shone through and hence she is deserving of that post.
So next year, I don't know if I will still be able to stay in hostel.
I think being selected into a main committee would reflect that your qualities are recognised. For I thought that I had commendable qualities being selected as prefect and in the main com back in secondary school, now I seriously have my doubts. Successfully being booted out of being selected into the main committee twice, and consecutively, my confidence is faltering... and faltering at a higer rate at this second time. I keep thinking that the fact lies not in my qualities not being recognised, but lies in that I have no quality. For the lost of faith in my confidence, I compare then and now, there is truth when I say, I am more afraid to stand out now, more afraid to voice my opinions. I don't want to turn into a silent mouse. I need a boot up in confidence... can someone help?
what we could have been, 4:33 PM.
