Saturday, November 24, 2007
I was waken up in the early morning with a stomach aches and I thought that probably I was just too nervous to go for blood dontion today. I opened my door and saw the lights were switched on. Nik's door was ajar and he was not inside. Dad's watching TV. The first thing that occured to me was "What's happening?" My clouded, half-asleep mind could not yet focus and the only thought was BATHROOM.
Well, Dad has got a bad stomach ache, so did Nik. Shucks, and I thought something must be wrong. Well apparently, I was not feeling all that bad which was lucky. Nik ate the most yesterday and he's suffering the most today. Hate the nauseating feeling and the come-and-go aches at the adomen.
I couldn't really control my laughter much this morning for I thought it was kinda funny to have mass food poisoning. Mum didn't get it for she did not really eat dinner yesterday as it wasn't to her taste. If I had persisted at stubbonly refusing dinner, I would not be having a problem today. Not to worry, we have since visited the doctor and she has not refered us to the hospital. It will get better.
So it boils down to no blood donation for me today. When all along I have been trying to run away and escape from it, giving my reasons and stating my fears, when I have finally thought that I may give it a shot (no pun intended)... still no affinity with donating blood.
I am restraining from giving you my explanations. If I give anymore reasons for not donating blood with you today, you probably would think that I am lying to run away from it. If you know me well enough, you would know that I refrain from lying and my lies are usually weak. Anyway, I am sick and your messages are not helping. Probably you intended for it to be teasing but you didn't realise it is hurting more than you expect. Otherwise, and I won't know for sure, you probably meant what you texted me today. And I don't know why I really care.
Dis-heartened.
Well, Dad has got a bad stomach ache, so did Nik. Shucks, and I thought something must be wrong. Well apparently, I was not feeling all that bad which was lucky. Nik ate the most yesterday and he's suffering the most today. Hate the nauseating feeling and the come-and-go aches at the adomen.
I couldn't really control my laughter much this morning for I thought it was kinda funny to have mass food poisoning. Mum didn't get it for she did not really eat dinner yesterday as it wasn't to her taste. If I had persisted at stubbonly refusing dinner, I would not be having a problem today. Not to worry, we have since visited the doctor and she has not refered us to the hospital. It will get better.
So it boils down to no blood donation for me today. When all along I have been trying to run away and escape from it, giving my reasons and stating my fears, when I have finally thought that I may give it a shot (no pun intended)... still no affinity with donating blood.
I am restraining from giving you my explanations. If I give anymore reasons for not donating blood with you today, you probably would think that I am lying to run away from it. If you know me well enough, you would know that I refrain from lying and my lies are usually weak. Anyway, I am sick and your messages are not helping. Probably you intended for it to be teasing but you didn't realise it is hurting more than you expect. Otherwise, and I won't know for sure, you probably meant what you texted me today. And I don't know why I really care.
Dis-heartened.
what we could have been, 10:46 AM.
Monday, November 19, 2007
Tomorrow is CBC111 (Modern Chemistry) exam. I don't know what I can expect. I did study for the last test but the results turned out to be not-so-good. As usual, I am perfoming below average. Became very worried ever since I know about my mid-term 2 results with none performing above average. How?
Yeps, like I said in the previous entry, I had my forensic science exam last thursday and it turned out to be a challenging paper, with many case studies that are to be recalled. It is not helpful in the sense that the caucasian names and far-away places are used to mention and classify the cases. However, I guess the paper is do-able, for many questions tests on common sense and general knowledge. I am sure going to miss this module... it is my favourite one so far.
Yeps, like I said in the previous entry, I had my forensic science exam last thursday and it turned out to be a challenging paper, with many case studies that are to be recalled. It is not helpful in the sense that the caucasian names and far-away places are used to mention and classify the cases. However, I guess the paper is do-able, for many questions tests on common sense and general knowledge. I am sure going to miss this module... it is my favourite one so far.
How do you know whether you like or have fallen for someone, and not just reciprocating with kindness for the love the other party has given you? How should you act or react, in order not to be leading the other party on while sorting out your own feelings? Things are happening too quickly and my attention is captured in no time. I'm in a lost as to how I should respond; responding to "jia you" and "good luck" was easy; responding to "good morning", "good night" and "sweet dreams" is tricky and gets more and more difficult as time passes; responding to some others gets a bit tough that I had to skip and ignor them altogether. Lost and the only way out is by myself, before you say "Game Over".
Perhaps in the end, you are just sending out the wrong signals or I am interpreting them the wrong way.
what we could have been, 8:03 AM.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Just ended MAS181 paper a few hours ago... Only can do about 60%. Probably means that I will score around there too. MAS 181 is one of the easier subjects I'm taking this sem. How?Tomorrow having Forensic Science exam. Hope it will be better-to-the-power-of-infinity.
Irony: You're encouraging. You ask me not to get distracted. But the truth is that you are my greatest distraction at the moment.
Afraid to fall wrongly.
what we could have been, 6:45 PM.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Do you know?
Do you know?
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock on the door has
changed.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the
minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things
it took to save us
I could fix the pain that
bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge
and I don't know what else
to give.
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock on the door has
changed.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
If you just don't talk to me, babe.
I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
I could never see us ending like this.
(Do you know)
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never ever happened to me.
(Do you know)
But after this episode I don't see,
you could never tell the next
thing life could be
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock on the door has
changed.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock on the door has
changed.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know?
Do you know?
Do you know?
Do you know?
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock
on the door has changed
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
[ you don't how it feels ]
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away
[ you don't how it feels ]
Do you know what it feels like
[ you don't how it feels ]
to be the last one to know the lock
on the door has changed
[ you don't how it feels ]
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know?
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock on the door has
changed.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the
minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things
it took to save us
I could fix the pain that
bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge
and I don't know what else
to give.
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock on the door has
changed.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
If you just don't talk to me, babe.
I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
I could never see us ending like this.
(Do you know)
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never ever happened to me.
(Do you know)
But after this episode I don't see,
you could never tell the next
thing life could be
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock on the door has
changed.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock on the door has
changed.
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know?
Do you know?
Do you know?
Do you know?
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock
on the door has changed
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
[ Chorus ]
Do you know what it feels like
[ you don't how it feels ]
loving someone that's in a
rush to throw you away
[ you don't how it feels ]
Do you know what it feels like
[ you don't how it feels ]
to be the last one to know the lock
on the door has changed
[ you don't how it feels ]
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
Do you know,do you know,do you know,do ya?
what we could have been, 4:52 PM.
Saturday, November 03, 2007
